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You are a Gray Duck

If you aren’t from Minnesota, this might blow your mind… but kids here play Duck, Duck, Gray Duck. The rest of you may know it as Duck, Duck, Goose. Some Minnesota things just don’t make sense… but I guess neither do many Texas things; we all have our crazy! HA

Well, this weekend the message at church hit me so profoundly that I needed to share it with you all. The pastor made the brilliant point that we all live with the hope and anticipation of being the Gray Duck/Goose. We want to be picked, we want to feel special, we don’t want to JUST be a duck. But the striving to feel wanted cannot be satisfied if we don’t find an internal peace. Even if you aren’t a believer, the core message is so beautiful… keep reading!!

If you’d like to watch the original message, you can see it HERE.

The message is about dating, but it can apply to any relationships. He focuses on the Biblical story of Leah. She was the ‘unwanted’ sister, and her dad tricked a man into marrying her who intended to marry her beautiful sister. She hoped giving a son would make him love her. It didn’t. She hoped giving him a second son would make him love her. It didn’t. Surely the third son would make her husband love her. It didn’t. With child number four, she finally changed her patterns. Instead of hoping it pleased her husband, she turned to the Lord. Turns out, this fourth baby would be the lineage that brought Jesus to the world.

Y’all, I haven’t had a big cry from a church message in a long time; this one was rough. It touched a wound I didn’t realize was still very raw. For the past six years I prayed, and strived, and hoped my husband would love me… would value me… would pick me. I lost my perspective on where my worth comes from. Hard truth?? It’s not from your husband. It’s not from your friends. It’s not from your parents. It’s not from your children. Putting your value in the hands of others is a dangerous game. Look inward or upward, it’s the only way to end the striving.

I was so impacted by his message, I made myself a gray duck shirt. I’m officially a ‘gray duck’ convert!

I am loved, I am worthy, I have value, and so do you, friend.

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LANGLEY M